Chansing Joy

Every morning, she laced her shoes before the sun rose. Not because she loved running—she didn’t—but because she believed joy was something you caught only if you chased it hard enough. She ran through quiet streets, past shuttered cafes and sleepy trees, through graveyards of dead flowers, her breath fogging the air. In her mind, joy was always ahead of her, just out of reach, daring her to try harder.
She had learned this belief early. Work harder. Be better. Don’t stop. If you build it they will come. Joy, she was told, was the reward waiting at the finish line.
But the finish line kept moving, crossing the streets at moments notice, unchecked.
One morning, halfway through her usual route, her foot caught on a cracked sidewalk. She stumbled and fell, scraping her hands and tearing her favorite leggings. The run was over. Frustrated and embarrassed, she sat on the curb, fighting tears. The sun was fully up now, spilling gold across the street.
That’s when she noticed the music. She heard that delicious tune piercing through.
An old man across the road was sweeping his storefront, humming softly—off-key, unapologetic, completely absorbed without a care. A little girl skipped past him, pausing to spin in a circle just because she could. A breeze lifted the leaves, and for a moment the whole street seemed to sigh, like a quiet star cresting the mountains.
She realized something strange: none of them were chasing anything.
They were here. There.
She walked home slowly that day. She noticed the warmth of her coffee mug, the comfort of her shower, the way her muscles relaxed once she stopped pushing them, chilled and breathe. The world hadn’t changed—but her attention had. She has become more aware of her surroundings, her existence.
Over the next weeks, she still worked hard. She still dreamed. But she stopped sprinting through her days as if happiness were late and she had to catch it. She let herself rest, took it all in. She laughed without earning it. She danced in her kitchen while dinner burned a little. She sang her lungs out to the moon and back. She chatted softly to the plants soaking up the sunset.
And joy?
It didn’t run anymore; why would it?
It met her in quiet mornings.
It sat beside her in moments of gratitude, in the silence of prayers.
It showed up when she wasn’t looking—soft, steady, and real, it sang her lullabies, told her stories.
She learned that joy isn’t something you chase down and conquer. It isn’t a vibe or a chore.
Joy is something you notice when you finally stop running long enough to let it catch you. It is gratitude without effort, the felling of being alive in a way that feels meaningful. Joy is the quiet light that rises within you.