And this happened!

I went to visit Virgin of Schoenstatt church last Friday, a little chapel tucked in between farmlands in South Miami with some of my bible sisters for some meditation and prayer.

We were praying the stations of the cross, when an halo ring began to form around the sun. We had our haha moment for a second there, a ring beginning right at that moment… divine intervention, perhaps, we thought but kept going.

We went in the little chapel for mass and continued prayers but it was then, minutes later, that I began to experience what is undeniably rather intriguing, to say the least.

To describe the event during and after the service, is behind words. I had my “brat” moment during mass. I could not stop crying and kept going with gusto. It was one tear after another, a nonstop convulsion with tissues in the making and then some. I could kept going but will leave the rest to a later date. I would say this much however, it was an halo of out-body experience, an Amen.

The mass was over, the group left the premises but I, blunted by emotion still, stayed behind, praying, weeping uncontrollably, trying to restrain myself, taking in the moment. Oblivious of the “storm”, staggering and swaying a little, I walked out to join the group to “uproar” of The Picture. Yes, a picture that left me at Hello!

Not trying to make lemons out of the lemonade, believers and non believers but I had my moment of “Lord what is this and what are trying to say?” Take one goo look at the Picture, can you spot a Cross and A Heart? Some folks however go even further. They see a picture of Jesus but you would have to turn the picture around to the left to see it. I saw it; perhaps, because I am a believer.

I thought it was all once over as the day winded down but it didn’t.

I equated my little “dance” in the church to whatever is going on in my life today but the universe had a different answer for me. My mother called me later in the evening and it was during our conversation that she blurred something to the fact, “I went to your father’s mass today”. It is a Catholic thing to offer a mass for the soul of someone who died.

Ouch, it hurst down there. How could I have forgotten? My father and I were this close. I was feeling guilty as “hell” to put it mildly and didn’t connect the dots until later in the evening while praying when it hit me like a ton of break, my father passed away four years ago on that day. Perhaps, it was the old man’s way of telling me that he loves me and was with me or something else or nothing at all. I don’t know but an heart in the middle of the sun?

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Mild Aroma, Woman

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My life is one constant motion for equality, survival, acceptance, candid curves.
I fight to exist, smile, laugh, to be heard. I am happy.
I fight to be able to put my pants on, comb my hair a certain way, a pierced ring on my nose and a lipstick of my choosing. I scream.
I fight so the person next door know that I am me. I am free.
I fight like a tiger.
I don’t need to have a rock star intelligence, sculpted body or wear high heel to be me.
I am beautiful, I am ugly. I am skinny, I am fat. I am short, I am tall. I am DD, I am A. I like blue, red, purple or green. I am every shade there is.
I am an emotional reck who sheds tears faster then the rain drop but a gracious gentle flower then the winding wave washing ashore.
I zigzag like a butterfly, I marvel life, I embody serenity but I don’t crack; I keep going.
I am a sexual tender, mild aroma in the bushes,
the charismatic being looking for to get drunk of laughter at the next friend’s corner bar.
I feel prettier then the rainbow because I like to breathe in the sun and irradiate the room.
I wake up at cracker dawn say my Amens and Thank You’s to the Man upstairs,
feed my herds sooner that I can drink my coffee and hit the next train to Georgia.
I am gorgeous. I love. I create. I educate. I dream. I give life.
I am a light. I beam. I venerate. I compete. I am ferocious.
I am authentic. I am complicated.
I am a leader and there isn’t a math equation I haven’t been able to solve.
I did’t go to school, I am scientist. I am not a doctor, I am a farmer. I am a teacher, I am a tattoo artist. I am an astronaut, I am pool dancer. I am not a mother, I am a sister, daughter, grandma, companion, lover, friend, wife, aunt, a soldier…
I am me. I am my own voice. I am a woman. I am girl. I am female. 

Happy International Women’s Day!

My Art, My Creation, My Work

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There is always a reason a person stops doing something. Mine is simple, I have been busy handling my other passion, designing.

You see, I am a woman show. I live in a schizophrenic world, no pun intended as  many family members are affected by the disease but my hands are like tentacles extending everywhere.  They move around faster then birds migrating south. I am just creative so they say.

I have been spending a lot time lately creating fantastic pieces and participating in many shows, leaving me with this much window to write but it is not an excuse. 

Once upon a time, I wanted to be a fashion designer so I began sewing, to the point I had my own clients, high school friends, a skill I learned from my mother at tender age of 16. I was riding high, I loved it but it all stopped when I moved to the States where you live and breathe ready to wear, and college took over. 

I was creating and it felt great to see my work on others. Undone, I moved on, dreaming on becoming a fabric designer. So, I began sketching while innocently searching for factories with no way of knowing it would come to fulfillment.

As fait would have it, I ended up in the same city the factories were to be located but as it has happened with many factories, they moved to China. However, the world today is our oyster. We live in the digital age where anything and everything is possible as long as you try.

I thought about combining my two loves, well one of many, designing and sewing and create beautiful pieces for a long, long time but kept putting it in the back burner. I had ideas, may ideas and they were that, ideas until now.

It is without further ado that I present you my first installment of my two loves. The fabric you see, it is mine and the bags, I made them from head to toe.  They are ©Ampablue Creations. Hope you love them as much as I loved making them.