Ana Maria!

181269_563340613688631_1466761944_nIn the US, they are called illegal aliens – I am yet to see the spaceship landing – but across the world, they are perhaps, referred to as undocumented. Forgive me but they are simply human beings, emigrants in search of a better life to me.

I am not going to get into the politics of the subject because it would perhaps be a mile long of unrepentant speech and unwarranted cracked jungle of lines, but tell a story of Ana Maria and the highest sacrifice any Undocumented Emigrant mother can make.

It is not only the United States that has issues with undocumented workers. It seems to be the topic of my conversation with a friend who is so adamant about deporting all “illegals” as if they were one altered yogurt in his refrigerator, ready to turn his stomach upside down and make him run to the bathroom in an omelet frenzy. It is not.

Most countries, especially Europeans are experiencing some kind of forceful migration as people move from countries to countries in search of means of survival, as their countries economy are going bust. It is simple mathematics. It is about economics. It always was and it will always be and the Europe is not immune to it. The difference is some countries are screaming bloody Mary more than the others. Understandable. Fear is one ugly accessory. So, the world is today one box of chocolate.

Set aside your thoughts and hear me, I mean her, Ana Maria.

I met Ana last year at a friend’s house. I really don’t know how she ended up in Europe; perhaps, she told me and me being me, it did not stick, it flew out like a little butterfly just out of the larva but getting there she did. Last I heard, she moved overseas temporarily, the main reason as in so many cases, to work hard and send money home to provide for her kids, give them a better life and education.

Funny, how the subject of a husband was never discussed. She never mentioned him or if there is even a him in her life, and if he exists, is he helping her out, how is he fitting in the picture? The subject is after all a personal matter and it was not my job to neither ask nor judge. So, I did not ask.

I just liked Ana at get go. We kinda clicked in a jiffy and found ourselves talking as if we were old pals and we weren’t. It was one Sleepless in Seattle kind of “attraction”, her determination and sacrifice, her survival skills, her story, really did me in and was attached to the hook.

Ana is in her early fifties, I believe, she does not tell her age, then again which woman does; one well mannered, curvy and gorgeous, smart bubbly Latina.

She has been working hard since she arrived in the country, holding different jobs, mostly domestic work, cleaning one house here and another there like most in her situation do and she had plans.

Mind you, she has not seen her kids in about eight years. Aside from pictures, she has not seen them metamorphosing into young men. She has heard their voices but didn’t know if they grown a mustache. She heard their voices but has not touched nor felt them in a while. She heard their voices but have not caressed their hair or chosen their attires to school. She heard their voices but has not met their girlfriends, yes they are boys and as far as she knew it, all was well. But then again, this is not how the story ends.

And then there were two.

You see, Ana had plans but lately, she has been talking about going back home a lot. She is done and thought now that the kids were grown and were old enough to fend for themselves; she had the carte blanche to return. She did not see herself staying behind two years.

That was her plan and she had it all planned out. The older had just graduated college and the younger is still in high school, and now that he started working, the plan was for him to help her raise his younger brother letting her to work less and return home.

Great! I love plans, I envy plans but sometimes, there are others plans. Plans that are out of our control. You see, we can make plans all we want but often, there are other forces stronger than our plans, other curves, semicolons that are inserted into our plans and we just have to sit tight and ride it, deal with it the best way we can. They are called life tests.

Just when the older son was set to begin his new job, a brand new lawyer you know, and help his mother as she so envisioned, he was struck by a car and killed instantly. Blink and he was gone, yes just like that.

Yes, she had plans.

Now, what is this supposed to mean? How cruel can the world be? I know I know, I am always the first one to preach about life and how He has it all lined up for us, blah, blah, blah but c’mon, is there a better test then this? What now?

Off course she was devastated. Off course, she wanted to drop it all and go. Off course, she wanted to say goodbye, I mean, it was her first born, and any parent would drop it all and go. No parent should burry his/her child but she did.

The grieving process has not been easy for her and it complicated matters more with the realization that she couldn’t leave the country and there is one additional being who still relies on her plans, if she did, there was the possibility of her never coming back.

It is hard, difficult but ultimately she decided to stay, making the ultimate sacrifice once more than any mother can. She is relying on prayers, strength and courage to cope but she is also aware that God never gives us more then we can bear. As many plans as she made, as many outlines, periods, sentences and paragraphs, there was something more powerful in control, a semicolon, and He only He can answer for it as He so wanted that way.

As The Story Goes, The Story

20130615_180338AI was out of the country on a Christmas holiday when the unthinkable happened: my attached to the hips beautiful companion, dear beloved Eos Cannon camera, did me a favor and stopped working. Yes, just like that she kissed me goodbye and told me I will see you later alligator.

I went into a panic mode, fuming everywhere like a dragon.

I was attending a wedding in Rioja region, Spain. I planned to take tons of pictures, enjoy the weekend with family and friends but there I was, pacing around like a dog in a cage, ready to break the chairs of my hotel room and pull the wig out of someone. Who that person was, is still under discussion as there was no one wearing a wig to pull from.

I frantically searched for a solution to my sudden death situation, believing that I could find a Wal-Mart or Costco but noo, I forgot that we were not in Kansas anymore.

I had no idea what the error meant until I googled it. I soon learned that there was no reason to scream bloody mary as there was nothing that could have been done at the moment, other then to let it go and relax.

Are you kidding me? Seriously, relax?! Not when you are on one of the most beautiful regions of Spain with so much to capture?! Easier said then done. Luckily, I always carry a backup camera with me, my old mini pocket Samsung camera and although, the images are much to be desired, I still managed to take a few.

Being that an emergency, I contacted a photographer friend as soon as I landed. She kindly referred me to her trusted and reliable sanctuary. Cool. Assurance and trust, that’s just what the doctor ordered!

After the initial assessment, the technician informed me that there was no need to plan a funeral just yet; the camera was fixable, just needed a new part. I rejoiced, did the hoola hoola dance and for a small fee, we got the ball rolling. Well, kinda off.

You see, things have a way to not always work the way one envisions. They can take a body of their own.

It is old news that my camera is my muse. I recall telling the assistant at the time specifically that I needed it like yesterday while they promised to deliver it tomorrow. Fast-forward four weeks, no camera, no parts and that’s not all folks. This is where the party actually begins.

I called on Monday and the answer was, please call back on Wednesday. I called on Wednesday and again, please call on Friday. A few hours later, still Wednesday, I got a call indicating that the camera was ready. Ok, either I am a psychic or I swear some magic happened. One day you are telling me you were waiting on a part and next, you have the part and the camera is fixed. It wouldn’t take a genius to crack this one up and yes, perhaps, it had something to do with the fact that I reminded them of their customer service “promise”.

As it turns out, I am a psychic after all. Sure enough and just as I expected, gentlewoman please start your engine, a word of advise check anything before you leave any place, the camera was not operational and a new error, and check-in, was only three hours away. Yes, I was flying again.

They checked and rechecked, fixed and refixed and I gave it right back to me. It was problem. So, I hop on my car again, heading home but turned around just as I started the engine. The old nemesis, the error, was back.

At this point, still keeping cool as cucumber, let’s face it I had no other recourse, I saw the time flying by. I don’t recall cucumber being that cool but I digress.

Word on the street the camera was working perfectly. It had something to do the memory card. Huh?! I kindly gave the technician the card once he asked for it believing that it was for testing purposes only.

He walked to his workroom and comes back a few minutes later suggesting the memory card needs to be formatted. Mind you I never said Yes. He goes back to the room and returns a few minutes later, camera in hand and after taking a few pictures, he gives me the green light.

Happy as pickle and considering that I was late, I hopped on the car and headed home to learn later that not only he had formatted the memory card without my authorization; I also lost tons of pictures.

Pause. Breathe. Maintain calm. Need a chill pill. Call. Call. Call. Someone answered. Drive there.

I immediately called and the guy who responded promised that they “would try to restore them.” They would try, they said. Try. I wanted to hear Fix.

I got in the car again and after waiting for half hour, I thought I would have the pictures with me but it was not meant to be. The restoration took forever, I was late to the airport and the memory card and restored pictures on a flash drive arrived a week and half later via priority mail. Nice!

Lessons learned? Definitely. The camera? It is still not working. Happy for the six months warranty. In the meantime, a replacement has come to the rescue.

The Sky This Morning

20130522_075949I celebrated a milestone back in 2010. I am not going to say how many candles I celebrated but found myself on a beach in St. Petersburg, Florida with a few friends, some I had just met the day before through a mutual friend, when I had planned to have this big ole shindig with all the invitees dressed in sky blue attire and bare feet, decor to mirror a wedding, mermaids falling from the sky, Maroon 5 or Prince playing the sound and everyone just having a great time. Oh well, that was just a dream but what a girl to do then dream?! It is cheap and you don’t have to pay a dime.

As I strolled down the beach, enjoying the weather and what mother nature had to offer, I crossed paths with this elderly lady who resorted to asking me a few liners after she learned she was not being photographed, “have you ever noticed that not all the clouds are the same?” Humm, great question. Never noticed, I replied. “Have you ever seen a website or a magazine dedicated solely to clouds?” Again, my answer was no. Perhaps, there is one but personally, aside from the National Geographic magazine publishing one picture here and there, I am yet to see a periodical totally dedicated to it. So, no.

20130522_080026_2Funny how things work. I found myself from that point on, kinda consumed, paying attention to every little cloud in the sky, photographing, cataloging them daily which I hope to publish soon. Call it geek or whatever you want, trust me when I say that it is a lot fun, specially when you take a few minutes to gaze and witness them metamorphosing, it is one cool phenomenon… exhale!

P.S. These pictures were taken with my cell phone hence the quality but they look great I might add.