Suffering is an emblem of learning, a quiet recital of lessons earned. It is an omen of what is yet to come—a corridor lined with designer scars not yet seen, stitched together by faith. To have faith, you must trust. And to trust, you must accept whatever ride you’re on—the wounds, the scars, the ribbons of pain that slip in whether the doors are open or closed, leaving their marks behind. You must learn to value your scars, assign them a worth, rather than dwell on their constant intrusion. Keep moving forward. Stop worrying. Let it go. Run wild. Let out your loudest roller-coaster scream. Breathe. Find the root of the wound. With your best scissors in hand, cut it clean—then sew it back together. Yes, easier said than done. I know. But you are shaping blessings. Tomorrow, you will be healed. One day, you’ll tell the story—how you overcame it all, how the Man Upstairs had a hand in it. Life lessons.
Every morning, she laced her shoes before the sun rose. Not because she loved running—she didn’t—but because she believed joy was something you caught only if you chased it hard enough. She ran through quiet streets, past shuttered cafes and sleepy trees, through graveyards of dead flowers, her breath fogging the air. In her mind, joy was always ahead of her, just out of reach, daring her to try harder. She had learned this belief early. Work harder. Be better. Don’t stop. If you build it they will come. Joy, she was told, was the reward waiting at the finish line. But the finish line kept moving, crossing the streets at moments notice, unchecked. One morning, halfway through her usual route, her foot caught on a cracked sidewalk. She stumbled and fell, scraping her hands and tearing her favorite leggings. The run was over. Frustrated and embarrassed, she sat on the curb, fighting tears. The sun was fully up now, spilling gold across the street. That’s when she noticed the music. She heard that delicious tune piercing through. An old man across the road was sweeping his storefront, humming softly—off-key, unapologetic, completely absorbed without a care. A little girl skipped past him, pausing to spin in a circle just because she could. A breeze lifted the leaves, and for a moment the whole street seemed to sigh, like a quiet star cresting the mountains. She realized something strange: none of them were chasing anything. They were here. There. She walked home slowly that day. She noticed the warmth of her coffee mug, the comfort of her shower, the way her muscles relaxed once she stopped pushing them, chilled and breathe. The world hadn’t changed—but her attention had. She has become more aware of her surroundings, her existence. Over the next weeks, she still worked hard. She still dreamed. But she stopped sprinting through her days as if happiness were late and she had to catch it. She let herself rest, took it all in. She laughed without earning it. She danced in her kitchen while dinner burned a little. She sang her lungs out to the moon and back. She chatted softly to the plants soaking up the sunset. And joy? It didn’t run anymore; why would it? It met her in quiet mornings. It sat beside her in moments of gratitude, in the silence of prayers. It showed up when she wasn’t looking—soft, steady, and real, it sang her lullabies, told her stories. She learned that joy isn’t something you chase down and conquer. It isn’t a vibe or a chore. Joy is something you notice when you finally stop running long enough to let it catch you. It is gratitude without effort, the felling of being alive in a way that feels meaningful. Joy is the quiet light that rises within you.
Freedom is a choice, the right to act of your own free will, to make your own decisions without restrictions or limitations, have options without obstacles or hindrances, be the arbiter of your person without threat of prosecution. It is something I don’t take for granted nor discart as a pamphlet. Consisted of an array of decorative layers and unparallel benefits, a banner of honor of sorts, an emblem one must carry to remind oneself of those less fortunate screaming to have voice.
We live under the umbrella of “we are free to say what we feel and do whatever we want” that we often forget the world isn’t perfect as we become oblivious and accustomed to the comfort surrounding us, as there are places where a sneeze can land you in jail, your every move is monitored like a lost robot, your next door neighbor isn’t your neighbor but a bird with a mouth longer than a truck or one’s rights violated like a broken bicycle. You are expected to keep quiet, not express your free will, where living is synonymous to existing; the psyched game in its core.
I lived such a thing, fascism, communism or whatever that was but as a rebel, I have always been, “my name is,” which landed me in hot waters a few times with pride. I was never the one to see injustice and conform to it as “Shut up” were never two words I swallowed quietly. I guess I have always been my own can of soup, with a mixture of ingredients put inside a turkey; my yesterday with a story to tell.
I have been “free” for so long I have no idea how not to be “free” as I recall what being “in prison” feels like, the memories not so easily fading but at the same time, the price tag, equitable. I can’t complain, I lived comfortably under a microscope, if you can call that, living. It was a dictatorship; care to say a word?
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